Happy In My Soul

I began this journal entry on Friday, July 13th. However, I failed to get it completed and posted on time which explains why the first section of this blog is related to Friday, 07/13/18. I will complete and post this entry today, Saturday, July 14, 2018.

I wrote the following on my Facebook timeline this morning …

”Happy Friday friends and family. I am ‘Jesus in my heart and soul happy’, I can hardly stand myself. I will write about it on my blog later.”

Carlos Michael Padilla, 2018, Facebook Timeline

Now that I am writing this entry in today’s blog I should explain why I am ”Jesus in my heart and soul happy.”

Before I begin let me remind my Catholic brothers and sisters that today is 13th of July, the 101st anniversary of the third apparition of Our Lady of Fatima who was reported to have appeared to three shepherd children: Lucia dos Santos and her cousins Jacinta and Francisco Marto at Fatima, Portugal between May and October, 1917.

In this apparition, (click here to learn more), Mary asked the children to continue praying the Rosary every day in honor of the Lady of the Rosary and to bring peace to the world and an end to the war (World War I). It was also during this apparition that Our Lady showed the children a vision of Hell. A vision that especially affected the youngest of the three visionaries, Jacinta.

I would like to ask my Catholic brethren to set aside 15-20 minutes from their day today to recite a Rosary in honor of the Lady of the Rosary for peace for only she can obtain it. Click here to pray the Rosary with Mother Angelica, founder of EWTN (Eternal Word Television Network).



Why am I happy?

Two words … answered prayer.

I am happy because I have witnessed answered prayer over the last few days. Of course, the reason God answers prayer in the first place is not for ourselves, necessarily — for the Creator requires nothing from us — but for His glory and His glory alone. When the Almighty answers prayer, at least this is what I have come to believe, our faith is increased and as our faith increases the more we glorify Him through our actions — which also includes continued prayer.

But, enough of that. Why am I happy?

This past week I received a telephone call from a recruiter, which came right out of the blue, regarding a position I had neither applied for nor spoke with this particular recruiter about. In fact, until she called me, I had never met this particular recruiter.

In addition to that phone call, I learned that my mother was released from the hospital in improved health after being admitted last week in a rather bad state of ill health. In fact, mother said, ”I thought it was the end for me!”

After praying for quite some time, especially since my conversion back to Christ, His mother and the Church in 2017, I learned from the mother of my children that our middle son had cooperated with God’s grace (in a big way) and agreed to get the help he needed to better his life moving forward!

I was hesitant to climb aboard the scale and weigh myself because I was certain I had gained at least a pound or two since my last weigh in. At the moment I am struggling just to get below 220. No worries, by the grace of Christ I will succeed. Back to the weigh in … I decided to weigh in Friday morning. GTG! According to the scale I did not gain any excessive weight other than .6 pounds. You can bet your bottom dollar I will do better over the next couple of weeks before I weigh in again.

Last, although I am certain there a other reasons to be happy, I learned the secret to improving the tile project(s) I have been working on.  Now let’s see if I can turn this tile art from a hobby to something major that could get me into places as a vendor such as Tulsa’s Mayfest! Now wouldn’t that be a hoot!?


HOW TO USE (AND NOT USE) SOCIAL MEDIA by Trent Horn, Catholic Apologist

I received an email from Catholic Answersan apostolate dedicated to serving Christ by bringing the fullness of Catholic truth to the world regarding a topic that interests me. Catholic Apologist and convert to the Catholic Church, Trent Horn, discusses in a Podcast how to use (and not use) social media.

”In this podcast Trent reflects on some incidents he witnessed of Catholics using social media in a way that undermined their evangelism efforts and gives us tips for how to do it right.” (Catholic Answers, E-mail, 2018)

I think I will give this podcast a listen so that I may better learn how to (and how not to) use social media. I believe it is important that we learn how to properly use and not use the platforms that Christ blesses us with, especially when sharing ”what we think we know” versus ”what we actually know” with others.


I recently began delving into tile art. At least that is what I call it. My first foray into this hobby began with the painting of a wall mural (a college mascot on the wall of an Oklahoma State Cowboy man cave). From wall muralsI went to painting aprons and hand bags, then to rocks and now tiles. My initial concern with the tiles was how I was going to transfer or draw an image onto the tile so I could paint it. It’s not like I can use push-pins to affix the tile to a wall and then project an image onto it as I do with wall murals and aprons. This was going to take some creativity.

After conducting some research on Google, I found a video podcast that explained in easy terms how to transfer an image onto a tile. The presenter, who obviously has been doing image to tile transfers for some time made it look easy. Not intentionally. That’s just the way it looked on the video. Let’s just say I made more than my share of mistakes, as is common with any greenhorn when they first start out with something unfamiliar to them.

I cannot say with any certainty that I have mastered the process with respect to tile art, but my methods certainly have improved. Below are photos I took of my most recent work. The first image shows my work at its genesis. The latter shows the work completed or almost completed.

”Pistol Pete” Oklahoma State University Mascot (Painted on 12×12 tile)



”Thug Cupid” (Painted on 6×6 tile)



BIG XII CONFERENCE LOGO (Painted on 12×12 tile)


Originally with the image above, I transferred it onto the tile using the method I researched on Google. You print the image (reveresed or mirrored) then place a generous amount of Liquitex  or Mod Podge onto the tile before affixing the image to the tile. You then smooth out any pockets of air bubbles and then let the image set for 24-hours. Once the image has set, you then wet the title and begin to slowly remove the paper without removing the image. Looking at the image above, you can see where some of the image began to erode away during that process. Removing the top layer of paper from the image is not as easy as it sounds. Once you have removed enough of the paper to reveal the image, you then let the image dry for 24-hours before spraying or brushing the sealer solution onto it.

After the above image dried, I thought it would look better if I painted it the way it appeared in the actual logo. The image below is the result of that process. I still have a ways to go before I finally get all of this nailed down, but I am enjoying these projects.





With so much going on, one hardly knows where to begin. Why don’t I begin by giving God glory (praise and thanksgiving, too) for the recent prayers answered?

Mom was admitted into the hospital last week in a very bad state. She was released yesterday. PTFSHS!

Prayers have been offered for quite some time that my middle son would be open to the promptings of the Holy Spirit and that he would cooperate with God’s grace with respect to the help he required to move forward in his life. That took place yesterday. PTFSHS!

Prayers have been offered since January 29, 2016 (my last day of employment), that I would be blessed with the right employment opportunity that is in accordance with the will of Christ and return to work with the understanding that I am to use that blessing to tithe (something I never really did with any serious effort previously, but will now), and pay off my debts. Out of the blue after many failed attempts at seeking employment, a message was left on my cell phone that came from an employment agency I had not had any dealings with since leaving CC’s Cosmetology College in 2010, on the recommendation of a friend (there is a story behind this) about a job they believed I am a well-qualified candidate for. That took place yesterday. PTFSHS!

What is PTFSHS? (Praise The Father, Son, and Holy Spirit!)

With all my glorifying and praising I sound less like a Roman Catholic and more like a Pentecostal. Believe me, nothing could be further from the truth — not the I begrudge the Pentecostals. I am expressing the joy that is in my heart for Divine Providence has heard our prayers and responded.

Nothing fills the soul with happiness more than those times when we can see Divine Providence in action. Wouldn’t you agree? Me, too!





When I woke up this morning the last news I expected was to receive news that my mother was in ICU at Pomona Valley Hospital and that I would experience heat exhaustion mowing the neighbor’s backyard. In fairness to Mr. Man, he did suggest to me that I mow his lawn today and the neighbors’ lawn another day. Not wanting to give the impression that I could not handle a little heat, there goes that pride again, I was determined to demonstrate that I could get the job done! I promised the neighbor (who is currently visiting the Philippines with his wife), a mowed lawn and a mowed lawn he was going to get.


No sooner had I begun mowing a patch of grass, I began to feel faint, dizzy and nauseated. In addition to that my muscles began to cramp, my head began to hurt and I was becoming disoriented. Thinking back to what Mr. Man suggested after I finished mowing his lawn, I decided right then and there to pull the plug on the mower and sit down. I am glad that I did. I did not feel right. What a terrible feeling that is. I hope I never experience that feeling again. I can only imagine what the pioneers experienced back in the day as they traveled across the deserts on their way west in their wagon trains. No wonder so many of them perished.

Getting back to my mother and her situation…

According to family members, mother went to the hospital late last night because she was not feeling well. According to my niece, Vanessa, mom was diagnosed with UTI (Urinary Tract Infection), Sepsis, and respiratory failure. She was admitted into the hospital, placed on a respirator and given medication. Due to the Urinary Tract Infection mother was diagnosed with, according to my sister, a blood disease. I am not certain what my sister meant by a blood disease but I am certain we will learn more over time. As of this writing, my mother is stable, resting and is still in the hospital. Several of my siblings have been with her and many prayers are being offered up for her. Depending on the situation I will travel to California to assist my siblings with my parents. Christ will have the final say. His Will be done.

I will keep you posted.

053114 Mom and Cindy

I love you, mom!





Who doesn’t remember that amazing song from the ”Mamas and the Papas?” Click here to listen. That’s one way to brighten your Monday.

103017 STATIONARY BIKETalk about going out of the Monday gate running, by the grace of Christ, I began and ended this day strong. I said my prayers, exercised on the stationary bicycle (32 minutes), retrieved the newspaper, prepped both coffee makers, fed the dog, let the dog out, let the dog in, watered the neighbor’s porch plants, collected the trash, placed the trash and recycling containers at the curbside, prepped, cut and transferred images onto ten (10) 6×6 tiles, cleaned the kitchen floor, vacuumed the house, prepped the pill containers, responded to e-mail, updated the calendar, talked with my son Matthew by telephone, went with Mr. Man to pick up the truck from the mechanic and I am now resting still feeling strong. I am not bragging. I am merely emphasizing the point that when we embrace the day in the spirit of Christ and with a joyful heart, we get more accomplished then we would if we greeted the day, in this case, Monday, with a grumbling spirit and not-so-joyful heart.

I pray that you had a great Monday, too!


Actually, they are not short shorts. That is what a friend in California (she shall remain nameless) calls them. They are actually Rugby shorts which I usually wear when working out (exercising). I am happy to report, although I still have a ways to go, that I was able to get into a pair which, up until today, I was not able to get into comfortably. It is a great feeling to know that when you put your mind to something, in my case my decision to do something about my weight, the results begin to speak for themselves which in turn puts a smile on my face.  Keep praying for my success moving forward.


Countdown to Christmas!


It’s that time of year on Hallmark. Heaven help us all! (Laughing to myself)


092717 Terry StephensIn late October 2017, I received news that one of my dearest friends had passed away a few weeks before in September. The news of his death came as a great surprise to me. I have written about him in a previous post so there is no need to write what has already been written, save to say, I have been missing my friend a great deal as of late. It feels to me that I am mourning the loss of a friend in a way that I did not mourn when I first heard about his passing. There are certain situations, products, words, television programs, etc., that I come across that continue to keep the memory of my friend alive in my heart. He was there for me at a time when I really could use a good friend. Amy and I had just separated. My life was going every which way. I wasn’t certain if I was coming or going, but Terry rescued me from that. Because of his friendship, I was able to see a world I thought I would never experience and was able to recover, somewhat, from the vestiges, if that is a correct word to use, of a failed marriage. I think of my friend almost daily and pray for him often. I wonder where he is in the world beyond and does he remember or think about me. I have the same thought about my brother Frank who passed away in 2013. Death may be final but it isn’t the end. As a believer, I believe I will see both when my time comes to stand at the pearly gates — that is providing that I make it to the pearly gates. The latter I will leave to the grace of Christ.


There is always a reason to pray or someone to pray for. One does not need to bring their knees to the earth and lift their voice in prayer only when trouble is amiss. ‘‘Prayer is not just for times of trouble.” I think God likes it when we converse with Him (pray) when life is good and not just because we are facing a challenge, dilemma or some sort of conflict that we are expecting Him to pull us out of. Speaking of prayer, I have a ”praise report” to share — my son Joshua informed me today (glory to God) that he was blessed with an employment offer. God is also answering prayer with respect to my middle son, Matthew. There you go, ”Prayer is not just for times of trouble.” On that note, please find it in your heart to raise your voice in prayer for me. Thank you.


Don’t’ forget the 4th is coming. Please keep our country in your prayers.




Good Sunday Morning!

May God Bless you on this beautiful day in Christ and send you the graces necessary to complete His Will moving forward into the new work week.

I had an opportunity (praise Jesus!) to make it to confession on Saturday at Christ The King and attended vigil Mass at St. Thomas More, both located in Tulsa.

I mistakenly read on the Christ the King website that confession began at 3:00 PM. Wrong! Reconciliation begins at 3:30 PM. What did I do with the additional time I had available? I used that time to pray, meditate and examine my conscience in preparation for confession.

I thought about attending Mass at Christ the King, however, when I considered how much time I had available between completing my confession and the start of Mass, I decided to drive to St. Thomas More (which is closer to the house) and attend Mass there.

I am glad I did.


This is the last weekend Fr. Samuel Perez, pastor of St. Thomas More (2008-2018) will say Mass at the parish. I have known for a few weeks now that he would be leaving the parish, I just wasn’t sure when that last day would be.

According to Fr. Sammy, he will spend time in Rome before returning to Tulsa. Once he returns to Tulsa he will work six months full-time in the Marriage Tribunal Office before being reassigned to a new parish. I will keep him in my prayers. I look forward to attending Mass as whichever parish the Bishop assigns him to.

I was pleased with Fr. Sammy’s sermon about not being afraid and having faith in Jesus based on the gospel reading (Mark 5:21-43) …

When Jesus had crossed again in the boat to the other side, a large crowd gathered around him, and he stayed close to the sea. One of the synagogue officials, named Jairus, came forward. Seeing him he fell at his feet and pleaded earnestly with him, saying, “My daughter is at the point of death. Please, come to lay your hands on her that she may get well and live.” He went off with him, and a large crowd followed him and pressed upon him.

There was a woman afflicted with hemorrhages for twelve years. She had suffered greatly at the hands of many doctors and had spent all that she had. Yet she was not helped but only grew worse. She had heard about Jesus and came up behind him in the crowd and touched his cloak. She said, “If I but touch his clothes, I shall be cured.” Immediately her flow of blood dried up. She felt in her body that she was healed of her affliction.

Jesus, aware at once that power had gone out from him, turned around in the crowd and asked, “Who has touched my clothes?”

But his disciples said to Jesus, “You see how the crowd is pressing upon you, and yet you ask, ‘Who touched me?'” And he looked around to see who had done it.

The woman, realizing what had happened to her, approached in fear and trembling. She fell down before Jesus and told him the whole truth. He said to her, “Daughter, your faith has saved you. Go in peace and be cured of your affliction.”

While he was still speaking, people from the synagogue official’s house arrived and said, “Your daughter has died; why trouble the teacher any longer?” Disregarding the message that was reported, Jesus said to the synagogue official, “Do not be afraid; just have faith.” He did not allow anyone to accompany him inside except Peter, James, and John, the brother of James.

When they arrived at the house of the synagogue official, he caught sight of a commotion, people weeping and wailing loudly. So he went in and said to them, “Why this commotion and weeping? The child is not dead but asleep.” And they ridiculed him.
Then he put them all out. He took along the child’s father and mother and those who were with him and entered the room where the child was.

He took the child by the hand and said to her, “Talitha koum,” which means, “Little girl, I say to you, arise!” The girl, a child of twelve, arose immediately and walked around. At that, they were utterly astounded. He gave strict orders that no one should know this and said that she should be given something to eat.

It is time to do as Fr. Sammy preached and Jesus declared, ”Do not be afraid and trust in Jesus,” — ‘‘Your faith has saved you.”


Guess who is feeling saucilicious right now?



I am happy to report that my first set of tiles featuring three different Bimoji images and an illustration from an actual photograph taken in 2015 at the L.A. Cupid Undie Run of yours truly. I can use the tiles now, however, I have to wait 28 days for the tiles to cure before placing anything hot on them or placing them into a dishwasher. My goal is to master the process of transferring images to tiles so I may accept custom orders in the future.


OOPS! Nothing like having a power outage right in the middle of journaling. Turns out the outage was caused by a vehicle accident. Offering a prayer for those involved in the accident and giving praise to Christ in the person of PSO and their staff for restoring our power in less than an hour.

Change 2017 to 2018



  1. To date, I remain unemployed, but optimistic. I will expand the job search to include opportunities outside of Oklahoma if unable to find anything in Tulsa or the surrounding area over the next year or so.
  2. Not much progress made on the weight loss front but still working on it.
  3. Finally had an opportunity to chat with mom by telephone this past week after several attempts to reach her. Also talked briefly with my sister Cindy.
  4. Spoke with my son Matthew by telephone yesterday. Need to follow-up on that phone call.
  5. Received a notification that it is time to renew my Student Loan Repayment Plan for another year. Ugh! I would rather be paying my student loans off then to ask for these annual extensions.


1. When was the last year I visited Disneyland? 2000

2. Can I recall the names of all fast food businesses that I worked for over the years? Snap-E-Taco, Del Taco, Carl’s Jr., Tom Sawyer’s Old Fashion Crispy Chicken, and Kentucky Fried Chicken.

3. What was I doing on the day the twin towers were attacked in New York? Driving to mom’s apartment in Hesperia, California.

4. Where was I working at the time the towers were attacked? GKK Works in Pasadena, California.

5. When was the last time I visited Knott’s Berry Farm? 1980

6. Have I ever been fired from a job and can I remember which companies I was fired from? Yes. Disneyland (1980), Bell+Howell (1985), Western University College of Osteopathic Medicine (1996), and Bandini Fertilizer (1998).

7. What was my favorite subject in high school? Biology

8. Considering my current waist size, what was my thinnest waist size? 32” (1985) the year I began jogging and exercising.

9. What was my most frightening moment as a child? The day our home was robbed. Fortunately, we were away from home when the robbery occurred.

10. Which celebrities have I seen in person? Lorne Greene, Melissa Gilbert, Hal Smith (Otis Campbell on the Andy Griffith show), Peaches & Herb, Evelyn Champagne King, Anita Ward (Ring My Bell), and Reba McEntire.





Yesterday, as I was updating the website of my parish – Saint Patrick Catholic Church, Sand Springs, Oklahoma – my pastor mentioned in his Pastor’s Journal that it was time to conduct some major deep cleaning in the parish. I thought to myself, ‘‘That sounds good! We should all take time to do the same with our homes, workspaces, classrooms, etc.”

I expect we should also do the same with ourselves with respect to our mind, soul, and body as well. What does that mean you ask?

I believe we should stop every so often to take a deep look at where we are, where we aren’t, and where we would like to be in our lives, especially with respect to our relationship with Jesus.

However, rather than preach to the choir and being that this is for all intents and purposes an account or journal based on my personal life, I will keep the deep cleaning reference focused on myself.

Since returning to Christ through His Church in 2017, I have been doing a great deal of thinking, praying, and reflection, mainly about the present and future moving forward — where I am, where I am not, and where I would like to be.

Prior to 2014, I looked at life as being all about me. However, after experiencing my Saul moment (in that same year) when I clearly heard a voice say to me interiorly in response to the following question, “Lord, why did you do this to me?” — (I was referring to being laid off from my contract dream job) Who said this is about you!?”

I knew right then there that I was doing life all wrong!

It wasn’t until three years later (2017) following a second lay-off from the aforementioned contract dream job (2016), that I began to give some serious consideration to where I was and where I was not with respect to my relationship with Christ, family, friends, mind, body, soul, and self.

Save through the grace of Christ I understood that where I was (how I was living my life) was not necessarily where I wanted to be with respect to my relationship with Christ — which between 1998 and 2017 had all but been non-existent; a token acknowledgment and not a true act of faith.

In other words, I was living life according to my terms (so I thought), and not on God’s terms. I indirectly said to God following the breakdown of my marriage and subsequent separation in August 1996, divorce in 2001 and based on an article I read in 2003 where a priest of the Catholic Church — hold your horses friends, this is not an attack against the Catholic Church — stated that same-sex attracted people are disordered, ‘‘I am done trying!”

That priests comment was the straw that broke the camel’s back. Of course, what I read and what I heard were two different things! As a result, I decided that I was finished with trying to live a life of holiness. It was obvious to me, wrong though I was that I was not called to become one of God’s chosen; a saint in the making as it were.

I remember thinking about the Church in the person of that priest and saying with anger, “You hypocrite!”

But who was the real hypocrite here?

Let’s understand something. As a same-sex attracted person who was recently divorced (second time) and who could not seem to do anything right, let alone find his way in life, hearing the word disordered in the tone at which I believed I heard it — my perception was incorrect — it was easier to blame the church for my perceived lack of compassion and understanding than it was to admit that I was wrong for choosing sin, the world and personal pleasure over Christ and the way of the cross.

”If I am going to be called a sinner by the very church I once believed in,” I thought to myself, ‘then I am going to live as a sinner!”

As with my decision in 1984 to leave the seminary, choosing to live in sin over a life with Christ was by far the worst decision I could have ever made.

Between 1974 and the early eighties and again between 1998 and 2017, I was lost! I was like the proverbial hamster on his wheel. I would get in, start running, go round and round only to find myself right where I started when I got off the darn thing.

Another way to put it, I was like the prodigal son (Luke 15:11-32) — squandering my inheritance and living a life is dissipation.

It wasn’t until Holy Week of 2017 that Divine Providence; the grace of Christ came to my rescue. I came to understand through that grace that it was time to turn my life around, to ask my Father’s forgiveness, asking Him to treat me as He would one of His workers. I was no longer fit to be called His son.

However, the Good Shepherd had a different plan. Not only did He come looking for me, He forgave my sins after confessing with a contrite heart that I was ready to repent; ready to let go of living a life of sin and return to Him.

That was where I was in 2017.

This is where I am in 2018 — still finding my way but with more clarity, peace, and direction. Hence, the deep cleaning of my mind, body, and soul. Enough time has passed to move beyond the postulant stage of my reconversion to the novitiate. Terms one becomes familiar with in the seminary.

postulant is a candidate who seeks admission into a religious order and generally refers to their first year with the order.

novice or the novitiate is the period of training and preparation that a novice (or prospective) monastic, apostolic, or member of a religious institute undergoes prior to taking vows in order to discern whether he or she is called to vowed religious life. It often includes times of intense study, prayer, living in a community, studying the vowed life, deepening one’s relationship with God, and deepening one’s self-awareness. It is a time for creating a new way of being in the world. The novitiate stage in most communities is a two-year period of formation, (Wikipedia, 2018).

I will spend the next two years developing my faith in prayer, active participation in the church and learning, coming to a decision by 2020 as to which way I will move forward in accordance with the will of Christ and at which time I will be prepared to take my first temporary vow to live in poverty, chastity and obedience as a lay Catholic.

I cannot thank Christ and His holy mother enough for His grace and her prayers which have brought me to where I am today and where I will be moving forward toward tomorrow. I pray that you will continue to pray for me and others like myself who have chosen a life centered on Christ; a life of prayer over a life of sin and personal pleasure.



I recently had to delete my long-time Facebook account in lieu of a new account because my previous account had been hacked. One would think with the skills Divine Providence has blessed these hackers with, they would put those skills to good use earning a living hacking professionally or working in IT rather than arbitrarily hacking into someone’s Facebook account. Good grief!



I finally started my image to tiles project this week. Actually, I am in the test-phase of the project until I have learned to fully master the process. The challenge has been removing the paper from the tile without removing the image or parts thereof. Once I have mastered the process, I will begin soliciting customers who would like to have a favorite image, quote, logo or illustration placed onto a tile that can have either a magnetic or cork backing for placing on a magnetized surface or to use as a coaster, or with no backing choosing instead to display indoors or outdoors. The tiles will be available in two sizes: 12×12 or 6×6. Below are the first set of four tiles I worked on this week using three Bitmoji images and one illustration from the 2015 Los Angeles Cupid Undie Run for charity. Let’s hope the next set of tiles I am working on come out even better than this set.







”When a friend says he needs or wants a divorce, we can help ascertain if he needs legal rights or protections not available except through the courts, or if he means he wants out of his marriage. The former is tolerable, the latter is a grave sin.”

Source: Catholic Answers (2018). When Does The Church Tolerate Divorce? Retrieved June 30, 2018, from https://www.catholic.com/magazine/online-edition/when-does-the-church-tolerate-divorce?utm_source=Catholic%20Answers%20Daily&utm_campaign=a4473d4ace-CADaily062918&utm_medium=email&utm_term=0_6b4f9e3af2-a4473d4ace-213047601




I feel like I am beginning to find my rhythm; my stride. It feels a bit like the smoke is finally clearing the room and I can begin to see my way out. I have only one thing to say, ”God is amazing, great, and totally awesome!”

Does this current joy mean that I will be happy moving forward? Yes and no. No, because life is unpredictable. One day everything is going great, the next, not so great. Yes, because God is amazing, great, and totally awesome. As long as I believe in Him who was sent by the Father, He will be with me until the end of my days here on earth and in eternity in heaven. Is that reason to keep joy in my heart despite the daily bumps and grinds? Your darn right it is!

”Lord Jesus, I offer this prayer through your heavenly mother. (Close your mouths readers, I am Roman Catholic and have a deep love for Jesus’ mother! I offer no apology for that fact.) Thank you for the gift of faith, trust in you, my family, friends, blessings and those who love me. Thank you as well for all the challenges and those people who do not love me. You love them just as much as you love me. I believe you are slowly showing me the way; pointing me in the right direction. It is just a matter of time as dear Amelia is always right to remind me, and in that, I take great joy. May you be praised and glorified. Amen!”

”One last thing Lord, please bless Amy with the blessing she believes is waiting for her. Please give us the grace to feed the hungry, clothe the naked, give drink to the thirsty, shelter the homeless, etc. Restore my mother’s faith, bless my sister’s marriage. Restore she and her husband to form a strong marriage and family bond and bless them financially. Keep my Godson Alex safe. Bring his prayer to fruition with respect to his mother. Bless my Goddaughter, Geanine. Let her prayers be answered. Please lift, restore, renew, and bring into the Church one day our children (Jennifer, Jacquelyn, Michael, Kristina, Matthew, and Joshua) and grandchildren whom I dearly love. May they always love and honor both their mother and myself and forgive me for all the wrong and bad examples I may have committed in the exercise of my blessing to be their father. O King of Kings and Lord of Lord’s, restore those souls, especially in America, that stand divided. Restore the faith of this country. Let us show the rest of the world that we truly are a country that ‘trusts in God!’ I pray dear Lord for an end of abortion in this country.  Lord, bless me with a servant’s heart that I may always serve You in my neighbor. Amen.”


IMG_1921When I weighed myself at the beginning of this month (June 2nd), I weighed in at 228.0 lbs. This is by far the most I have weighed in my entire lifetime. Since 2007 my waistline has expanded four (4) inches. The girth I see in photographs and mirrors is anything less than flattering. Not wanting vanity to be the focus of my drive to lose weight, for health reasons and because I desire to fit into clothes I once wore comfortably, I prayed the grace of Christ to move me to act. The following week I began working out. When I weighed in on Saturday (June 9th), I weighed in at 225.2 lbs. I lost 2.8 pounds. I did not work out in week three. When I weighed in on Monday, June 18th (week four), I weighed in at 226.4 lbs. Between week 3 and week 4 I had gained 1.2 pounds. After working out four days in week four, which included walking six laps on Friday, I weighed in on Saturday, June 23rd at 224.0 lbs, losing a total 2.4 pounds. Since June 2nd, I have lost a total of four (4) pounds. I still have a ways to go before I can honestly say that I am making real progress and feeling better in my clothes, but with the grace of Christ, I am determined to meet my goal of getting below 200 pounds. Please keep my efforts in your prayers.


What I looked like following my Friday morning workout.